Now the second thing I'm going to talk about is my girlfriend. Or ex girlfriend now I guess. It's a very long story but I have the time to tell it so why not. So I'm going to begin how we met and got everything started. Last year when I was living with my dad in lake Elsinore I had met Amy. Before she came I wasn't really talking to any girls because I was looking for that special one you could say. A bunch of girls were talking to me and trying to get with me but I wasn't interested in them. That all changed when Amy showed up. I still remember it all like it was yesterday. As soon as I walked into my 4th period I saw her sitting in my row all the way in the back. I instantly fell for her and knew she was the one. I'm not trying to sound corny or anything but this was how I was feeling. She was two seats behind me but those two seats nobody sat in. So I kept turning around and talking to her and I was just amazed how beautiful this girl was. She was the definition of perfect. And I'm not exaggerating when I say perfect. So after class I told my friend my plan and he had told me his. I told him good luck but I know she was about to be mine. So the next day I decided to sit in front of her and the teacher didn't say anything about it so I was just like cool I'm set. We kicked it off real good and everything. I was cracking jokes left to right making her laugh and smile. Another buddy of mine also was trying to get at her and she was in his first period. So it was almost like a competition and I honestly thought that I lost. He had a car and I didn't so there was some times where I thought something was going on and they were trying to be lowkey about it. Just thinking of it now gets me pissed off because I thought she was the one. But some stuff had happened with them and I don't know if they were true or not. My friend was telling me one and what they did and she was telling me another. But I had so much love for this girl that I didn't even care if it did or didn't happen. All that I wanted was for Her to be mine. So I was back on my game and this time I had her in the bag. She was telling me that I was the only dude she wanted and that she was doing all these things to make me jealous. I thought it was pretty stupid but I wasn't even sure. Like she was giving me signs but I was just a shy little dude at the time. But after all that I was on my game. I had her up on my lap everyday holding my hand and the whole deal. So she was going to Vegas for the weekend to see her mom because there was problems going on. That's where she came from so that's why she went over. But before she did I was thinking about asking her out and kissing her before she left so she knew I was serious about this whole thing. I just had a thought in he back of my head that She wouldn't come back. But I was like I'll just do all that when she comes back because its only for the weekend. Little did I know that would be the last day that I saw her. Man you don't know how upset I was. When she told me that on Monday going back on Tuesday I was just sad and pissed. Everyone thought I was going to fight somebody because I looked so angry. Then my dad picked me up 4th period and that's the period I had her in. As soon as I got in he asked what's wrong and then asked if it was girl problems. Out of nowhere I just broke down and started crying. I honestly never cry and this was the first time I cried over a girl. I started messing up after that and always ditching 4th period because I was just constantly thinking about her and I couldn't handle it. I can keep going but I'll just go to what recently happened.
I'm going to try and keep this one short but I'm just venting right now so I don't know when I'll stop. So earlier this morning she broke up with me and literally blocked me on everything. She was upset at me because on Saturday I guess I had fallen asleep on her and she was explaining a bunch of stuff that was going on and she thought that I didn't care about her. So I spent all day Sunday trying to fix the problem and talk to her about it to show her that I do care. So literally all day I was trying and finally later that night she forgave me and everything was cool with us. So I fell asleep pretty early that day like at 9:30 or 10. I woke up at like 12:30 and she was already on My mind so I texted her to tell her I love her. I just wanted to remind her how much she meant to me. Then out of nowhere she said that's bullshit and to go FaceTime my other girlfriend. I didn't even know where that came from. So I tried asking her what she was talking about but she literally blocked me on everything after that. I was honestly devastated. I thought that she was just out of my life forever. So I remembered about how they have texting apps so I decided to get one and text her on that. I just couldn't have her leave like that. It was like 3:30 in the morning when I sent the text because I could not sleep what so ever that night with all that on my mind. So later on at like 7:30 when I was getting ready and she texted back saying I hope you have a good day. So after that I was trying my hardest to see what was going on and how we can fix this. So we didn't talk like the whole day because she didn't reply at times but I'd just text her again and ask another question. I went to my counselor after school at like 3 and we just talk about whats been going on. So I brought her up and just the whole time I was there we were talking about her. So later on I went to my job to start my training and we were still talking because I was just filing out paperwork so I was able to still talk to her. But there was Like a time where I couldn't talk and an hour went and I hadn't texted her back so she probably assumed I was just ignoring her. So finally she unblocked my Number and we started texting again but not through the app. So I'm currently still trying to convince her That I do care for her and still want her. I could continue typing but then this paragraph would be longer then the last and the point was to keep this short.
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